Thanks
I wanted to say thanks to everyone who chimed in about the depression/counseling issue the other day. I haven’t responded individually because I’m just not really in a corresponding kind of place right now - it’s selfish, I know, but right now I still feel a bit like laying low.
But, thanks to what you all shared, I actually did call a counselor. Only to find out that there was no way my schedule would fit into her schedule. She said she’d try to hook me up with someone else, and I haven’t heard back since. In the meantime, though, I had a heart-to-heart with M. and with my mom, and I decided that the one thing I could do for myself is to just take some time for myself and do something I enjoy. Right now, that’s knitting - not so much because the repetition is enjoyable, but because there’s an end product involved. Right now, I’m very much about starting AND finishing projects in a comparatively short time frame.
I’ve also been trying to think a little more positively about myself and the world in general, and that seems to have helped a little, too. Still not sure about the counseling thing, but my reservations are primarily interpersonal (as in, M.’s highly suspicious of counseling, and I don’t want anything I might glean in counseling to be dismissed out of hand by him…but, on the other hand, it doesn’t have to have much to do with him to be effective for me…so we’ll see).
